Affections

2010-12-15T23:23:00.001+08:00

moved to nicraemon.livejournal.com :D

2010-04-16T23:48:00.002+08:00

tmdknnbccb. fuck miss syringe.
B for fuckin PW. not happy we dont like ur suggestions is it
then we go consult other pw teachers not happy
and wtf srjc 81% A. nb -.-
sajc say we cheat cheat cheat then complain much to MOE
then still noob, 150 out of 800 As. still got 150+ Cs somemore.
its just sooooo fucked up to lose 1.25 points like that for nth.
there goes mjc off top 5 cause tjc alr has 82% securing free 10 points.

2010-04-11T23:36:00.002+08:00

alrightts!! time to update after a long break.
so march block tests results are all out.. and hahaha
S UUUU and S is for GP :D looll. like shit i know.
nvms, there's midyears to come! ^^

yesterday was ahma's birthday so my parents ordered
buffet for dinner to be held at my house :DD
food was definitely nice, but seeing cousins again,
that feeling was better than eating good food.
its like we're somewhat getting closer this year? idk.
but prolly cause we have more opportunities or sth.
CNY > cousin's wedding > ahma's bday > ahgong's bday soon!
can see them again! hahaha.
then again, i had that feeling of wanting an older sister
at least its like someone u can share things with
and care for you when ur not really close to ur parents.
but again, i'll reflect bout what a shitty brother i am to my younger sis.
sighhh..

today went out with jingkai, nelson, don, choonzhe, cheeyang & melvin
4SA gathering hahaha, after like so freaking long.
been ages seen i saw some of them (other than facebook)
but we're still the same! lame & sick. loool.
it was at vivooo. steamboat buffet for dinnerrrr.
quite shiok actually, cause can spam beef and squid.
of course got other stuffs lah, like shark fin soup LOL.
even though im not in sajc, but i can still like somewhat
understand what they're crapping about.
lots of bs happening but at the same time fun.
yupp i just can't wait for A levels to end, then we can have
all the time to ourselves to do anything we want.
catch up with friends, play, go out and slack ALL we want.

2010-04-02T01:33:00.002+08:00

wheeees. end of the week thanks to good friday ^^
initially planned to have dinner then go catch a movie
- clash of the titans. but duhhh, 1st day release.
soo... kinda expected the tickets to be like sold out completely
ended up not watching any movie >.>
had BBQ chicken for dinner! first time! :D
quite nice actually, just that the serving size kinda small :\
the fries also niceee. ;D
then after finishing dinner at like 9.40?? we went to
D'Marquee outside there to slackkk.
kinda talked alot, then even shared views on religion! hahah
weird topic but kinda stirred up alot different ideals.

then went home cause we thought that it was quite late alr.
thankfully got charis' dad to fetch us to hougang interchange
where i took a cab home. or else gg, reach home dam late >.<
so yup at home noww.. prolly gonna spend tmr watching
downloaded movies ;X

i've already found back my motivation to study.
gonna start this weekend. 529.

2010-03-29T22:06:00.002+08:00

oh nooos. back to school again D:
receiving back somee papers >.>
terribleeeeeeee luhh. kinda expected though.
it's like we already planned to jump into the "hole" ourselves
i just hope that nobody takes it that hard.
there's still time to quickly rectify things hahha
like what tutors used to say, quickly rectify ur misconceptions.
lunch at 12.05pm spent at lounge napping ^^
quite shiookk sia but made my eyes really red ><
then got an sms that our GP tutor not coming, so no GP!!
yesss 2 period earlier releaseee :p
slacked in school for awhile before heading to ehub for lunch!
ate at some noodle store near the taiwan shop and BBQ chicken.
not bad actually, just a bit too spicy for tom yam lol!
then went scouting for bags with adelyn and gerry at tamp
so little bags luh! nothing to see one.
in the end gerry still probably decided to get the one at ehub haha!
rained real heavily when we were parting ways.
made my bus trip seem so long, letting me nap quite abit too
yup still in a nua mood, can't really start studying for MYE yet.

2010-03-27T01:48:00.003+08:00

wooo. before my blog collects dust and cobwebs..
march block tests ended!! yesssss temporary freedom!
:DDDDDDDD then yesterday,
we already planned to BLADE AND CYCLE
but stoooopid rain, rained so heavily for dam long too.
so ended up watching how to train your dragon
hahaha. still rmb how me and EL used to watch
the movie's trailer last year on the laptops when
we were working hahaha. still got once,
one of the permanent staff and us say, aiya today
cfm no ppl one, so lets slack, watch movie.
we used the2999$ lappy and watch, woaaa
the graphics dam nice hahahha.
i think we watched G.I.Joe and some game's
inbetween trailers.
thats when i saw the ps3 FFXIII game trailerrr
the superrrrrrrr zai graphics ^^

before movie lunch was at Just Acia,
EHUB one SUCKSSSSSSSSS,
not like the one at marina squareee.
got that ice-cream machine that has icecream
that tastes like last time 7-11's softie.
the movie was quite funny and cute.
the dragon hahaha.
i still rmb that the dragon suddenly fly up that part
i chua tio, actually JUMPED on my seat loool.
EL was like nice one, i saw that.
i think before the movie me and EL sat that
$6 "rollercoaster ride" the fake fake one.
then when start right i was like
EH WHY THIS MACHINE NVR MOVE ONE.
THEN IT MOVED RIGHT, MAKE US SLANTED
THEN STOP AGAIN. THEN IS THE STUPID
SEATBELT LOOSE, SO MUST HOLD IT.
by the time gg half the ride gone alr.
scam money luh. thats when after the movie
EL realised he lost his keys, then we checked that
thingy to find his keys on the seats there.
SO POWER SIA THAT THING, didnt know it
actually moved that much to make keys drop from pocket
cause cause, keys ma, got the grooves to grip like that.

TODAY I WOKE UP AT FREAKING 5.40PM
AND WHEN I LOOKED AT MY PHONE'S TIME
I FLEWWWW INTO RAGEEEEEEEE. HAHAHA.
I WAS LIKE IMMEDIATELY WTF OUT LOUD.
cos i had things to do and couldn't doooooooo argh.
thats like 14 hours 40 mins of sleep. was i that tired?
ok maybe it was cause i didnt sleep much during
the march block test week. esp for econs and bio paperr
left for tamp to buy red vans shoe as present for someone.
so nothinggggggg much to blog today :(
cause the rest is a secret :)

2010-03-22T18:45:00.003+08:00

GG.
I feel that i'm gonna walk into the exam hall
super unprepared.
especially with bio, topics from J1 till now.
wth. i think thats like 8 large chapters?
at least chemistry and econs been taken care of.
maths? heh, screwed up thanks to ____

2010-03-21T23:34:00.003+08:00

some quotessss.. :D

People who love each other end up reuniting.
No matter how far apart they are,
they will reunite in the end.
Love is something that returns.

I only know that the first time is accidental,
the second time is inevitable,
and the third time is by fate…”

There are two types of regret in this world.
One is losing the person you love.
The other is seeing your beloved lose happiness

Besides, I’ll be waiting for you to come back…
waiting for you to come back into my life.
If our lives were a game of monopoly,
no matter how many times you restart it,
the outcome should be the same…
because you are my destiny.

Towards the past or the present,
I can’t be sure…
but one thing that I can be sure of is that I like you

I hope that the life you will live won’t be too much to handle.
And that you will be happy…

Now that I’m alone,
I can truly understand how you felt when your heart was cold.
How lonely you must have been.
The heartache you must have felt.
Why didn’t I embrace you with more warmth then?

yupss if you've been a big fan of dramaass,
they're all from different ones..
each with a different meaning behind it.
i like the first, the middle & the last ones,
that's why they're placed at their positions.
i think last minute cramming things into my head is
driving me nutsss but nevertheless,
all these were worth giving a thought about.
esp the mistakes i made in the past..
what was i thinking back then?
sometimes sorry isn't good enough but
forgiveness is like the fragrance a flower gives
when they are crushed, don't you think so too? :)

2010-03-20T04:01:00.003+08:00

loved today's dinner at manpuku (is that how u spell?)

at TampOne today with 114 peeeople. ;D

for once i agreed that the setting was great hahhaa.

afterall, sitting under sakura trees to eat as one family ;X

and of course,

seeing everybody's faces again after 3 days plus ;)

though we know the prices there are likeeee scam $$ one

but its alright!!

especially the chocolate honey toast that costed $6

gone in like what, under 1 min? hahhaha. poor chels :)

abit of camwhoring and eating icecream.

im going to be sick of eating icecream for awhile now >.>

kokokrunch's the best, haven't grown tired of it yet =pp

2 days to MBTs.

already kinda gave up on bio,

totally zero interest in that subject already.

plus having such a subject tutor.. doesn't help :)

probably relying more on chem and econs now

to save my ass in this MBT killer week heh.

sleep timeeee. finished autumn's concerto ep 15.

ren guang xi so evil now haisss.

but i like his attitude still LOL. ^^

2010-03-18T02:29:00.003+08:00

heh.. just started watching autumn's concerto.
like 4 episodes into it already and i can like
guess how the whole story is going to flow like
sooo cliche to me but yet so touching T___T
5 also probably feeels the same way ;D
damnnnnn distracted man and MBT's like
in 4 days?? gaaahhh.

sleeep timeee. AC's gonna keep me
more distracted >.>

2010-03-15T15:36:00.002+08:00

made me miss lunch.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
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fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
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fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
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fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
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fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
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fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
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knnbccb boji lanpa kumlan
fuck off and burn

2010-03-14T23:49:00.004+08:00

wheeees. FFXIII and lightning^ is like stuck in my head.

can't wait to play the game on ps3 itself after A's.

it's 1 of the motivations to keep me going ^^

watched alice 3D on friday night with 4 others.

adelyn yulin justin and gerry hahaa.

damn pathetic turn up i know, but we all enjoyed it!

simple story yet wonderful showww ;D

used to be like afraid of that madhatter and the cat

with the big big grin. had that kind of impression

since young, then didn't bothered to relook into it again

but watching the movie.. hahahaha changed my perspective.

took neoprints with them after that HAHA.

probably the 2nd time im doing this >.>

obviously had to cab home since we started going home

@ like 12.30 i think. but the taxi driver zaiiiii.

was like driving at 140 constant most of the time.

scary turns and all, made me put on seat belt ._.

slept at like 4 i think, woke at 5pm on sat!! wth.

most of my day is like GONE already.

so saturday probably didnt expect to do much.

today!! woke at 12. at least not so bad lah.

distracted much from ffxiii and constant tempting

from NICHOLAS. (not me, my friend)

sigh.. just a few more hours to GP papers..

sooo fast huh. just a few more months to A's.

gotta hang in there :)

2010-03-10T22:37:00.003+08:00

yessssssss. 1 more day till friday
which is a holidayyy :DDD
thanks to the wonderful, power packed seniors
for getting nice A level results! :)

siaaaan, daily school routine is getting..
boring by the day, even though its been like this
since forever hahhaa.
and march block test is coming right up!!
next mon is GP already..! damnnnn. so fast =\\

had like some retarded current affairs competition
that we have to be audience for.
like who wants to be a millionaire-fashion.
and duh, obviously best class 09s111 win.
don't win no face liao. but the gap is just by 1 point.
& speaking of who wants to be a millionaire,
watched slumdog millionaire with adelyn, aaron and yulin
in library hahaha. was quite interesting lah.
I LIKED THE ENDING, WHEN THEY DID THE
BOLLYWOOD DANCING DURING THE CREDITS! HAAHA.
like what aaron say, dam good way to make ppl watch credits!
then the word 'destiny' keep coming up.
like this main character keeps saying to the girl since
both of them were young till the ending,
my destiny is you. ya right, never happens in real world.

changed blog music cause everyone is probably sick of it
its was my fav song for a period of time hahaha.
the singer that changed my perspective of country songs :)

2010-03-06T01:40:00.003+08:00

today is... FRIDAY.
shortest day ever, but still..
i can sleeep in econs lec cause its so boringgg
with that teacher going thru the econs test.
then then.. ended early at 12.05
but actually end at 11.15 for us cause our
econs teacher never comeeeeeeee! :D
then we play pepsi-cola, the step on shoe that gamee
and scissors paper stone slapping hand game and
the take 1 step back then the other keep stretching leg one
hahahaa. dam bo liao lah. we like no childhood hahah

went to white sands to eat.
basically almost ALL the places we want to eat FULL.
then when we went to KFC, got another group of
friends that just finished, so we can take their seats ;D
not filling one luh, cause i shared with 2 friends
3 pcs chicken meal hahahhaa.
so i decided to buy YA KUN KAYA TOAST!
OMG.. first time eat hahaha, and i can't stop saying
"DAM NICEEE" hahaha.
and of cos must take pic lah, first time leh.
seeeee the packaging so nice somemore.
better than those transparent plastic bags they put
your toast in when you buy frm kopitiam.
HAHAHA.

MJC did dam well siaaaa.. STRESSS!
its like improving every single year but this year's batch
improvement like dam freaking biggg.
and SIAN. D for chinese gahhh.
but at least it's over lah, not going to help thinking bout it.
rather than retaking or what,
focusing on the others now so that can do the same
as the seniors in their results seems more important now
knowing that term 2 will be much more hionggggggg!
so.. jiayou all ;)

forever my fav quote.

不管到哪里都可以。
因为只要有你的那一站，
就是幸福的。

CREDITS BIG BIG TO JASMINE FOR IT.

2010-03-04T21:32:00.006+08:00

yessssssss... 1 more day to weekends! ;D
road race on sat, then class outing~!
looking forward to it hahaha. ^^
chem test todayyy was... sian.
i forgot the whole carbonyl chapter lahhh.
sian, i think it tested alot on that chap.

i didn't know today got milo truck arriving!!
wth. plus my class' recess is like the latest
among all the classes.
so there's like damn little milo left.
and health & fitness club giving out free apples ;DD
it's been damn long since we all took an apple each
then sat down at the side of the canteen where
we took a picture eating apples together.
but then its not the whole class anymore =((

AND IDIOT JUNASON AND AARON KEEP POKING ME
TODAY. FUNNNEH IS IT HUH. I KNOW REVENGE LAH
BUT NO NEED SO CRUEL RIGHTTTT.
NOT FAIR TO GANGBANG.

ok nothing to blog alr. today is my resting day
can sleep like.. NOW =)))

i know it's awkward...
it's equally hard for me to face you,
but i still wished to be able to talk to you
like any other 114 friend..

2010-03-01T22:12:00.002+08:00

wahahaha, wth.
bio test today got postponed again to tmr,
because half of the cohort got alternate pages printed
instead of the full 9 pages. then cannot do.
all the questions they have either missing qns or
missing extract/source. hahhaha.
those ppl who studied like shit for last week and today
but got postponed sure wtf one hahahaha.

no recess today.. means.. 6 periods till lunch gahhh
heng today gerry for bring bengawan solo CNY cookies.
full tin somemore, almond cookie i think. dam niceee.
i swear, i keep hearing make-up lessons like dam frequent
tmr got GP and maths make-up lessons after school .__.
retardeddddd ttm.
then next mon and tues got econs and maths again.
siiiiaaaaan lah. idioticccc.
i think if its just 114, the pace will be so much faster.
don't need these crap makeups. ;\\

enjoying my kokokrunch with MAGNOLIA fresh milk
hahaha. expensive leh.
500ml magnolia = 1 litre HL milk hahaha.
but i like HL choc milk. strawberry abit urkk hahaha.

2010-03-01T02:04:00.002+08:00

so what now..?
i guess i'll find out myself
there's still time to turn around
back to the beginning

2010-02-28T00:14:00.002+08:00

wheeeezxzx. kites!
when you look at the sky @ sengkang's gigantic field
you'll always see it filled with kites like after 4pm ;D
emma and i have always wanted to fly a kite..
..with someone special ^^

woke up like suppper late today lahh.
like 3.15pm i think.
its almost like make-up sleep for the week!
so i can't really blog much cause..
i only had less than half a day to do anything! hahahh.
oh oh! i know!
i bought 2 boxes of kokokrunch &
2 large magnolia fresh milk.
hehehh *grin* jealousss anotttt.
ok i think thats all lol.

2010-02-27T01:45:00.005+08:00

CNY's OVER... in 2 days time hahaha.
still haven't do the loh hei thing with my class.
don't know still plan to anot hahaha, maybe.
aye this week is like dam boring luh, and
i think we suddenly became dam hardworking.
staying back in school ever since after CNY hols,
we've been staying till around 8.
and ever since i've never reached home earlier than 9!!
hahaha. sian. and by the time i reach home,
bathe, eat and slack abit..
NO TIME TO DO ANYTHINGZXZX ANYMORE.
can just finish homework then chat a lil,
then have to go to bed! ;(

3 cheers for FIRE DRILL on thurs hahahha.
took up like freaking 1 hour+. then several classes
missed their recess, so they made the next period recess
then lessons would resume from 1025am.
meaning.. no more bio period for test hahahaa. SKIP!
more time to study aha.

oh ya, theres this new vending machine in school
that sells toasted sandwiches, chicken kebab or macaroni
crap i dont know how to spell =\\
its like $2 / $2.50 or $4 for both. not bad business leh
hahaha, got ppl like me to buy.
but i think the chicken kebab one is nice ;D

ooohhh ya, i have this sudden craving for buffetttt.
i don't know why, but i hope that my class is going
after road race next sat to the one @ ehub heh.
jap buffet @ $22 i think. if not we can always go to
SEOUL GARDEN and eat a cow + a plot of land.
= spam beef since it cooks so fast in the pot of soup
and veg - the xiao bai cai hahaha.

oh and i heart jas for intro-ing me damn alot of chinese songs
hahaa, its been ages since i was watching chinese song MVs
on youtube and just listening n listening on.
we are lame but awesome ;D
i scared police catch me for dling so many LOLZXZX. ;X

2010-02-21T18:23:00.005+08:00

so many things happened since i last blogged.
j1 orientation'2010 fun, tiring & wild.
CCA trials, CNY & valentine's celebration in school,
CNY itself, CNY 114 gathering and REACH day.
i kinda made some awesome j1 friends from my OG
& my sister found her place in mjc, joined guitar.

the school cny celebration was more of
valentine/friendship day haha.. everyone giving
& receiving flowers. roses, gerberas, sunflowers.
not to mention some self-made muffins, brownies
and of cos everyone spammed chocolates as well hahaha.
then we, 114, went shopping at orchard hahaa.
i think only the girls shopped luh, the guys just slack.

then CNY came. first day visiting! left house at 9.10am
and i tell you, the roads totally no car one loh.
all celebrate countdown until oversleep. but good for us,
can just visit our places without any traffic jams.
1st place, tampines > bedok > bukit panjang > serangoon
then back home! :DD
my home's HQ, cause my ahma ahgong stay with me,
so i took the chance to take a nap in the afternoon..
didn't expect everyone to be at my house already when i woke
quickly went to take out my contacts, rinse then put back
then 1 by 1 go happy new year & shake hand hahaha.
so paiseh lah, 10 families sia. plus each of my uncles has
at least 2 children each. >.> so many ppl.
my maid and mum had to cook for that many ppl hahhaa.
catch up abit, actually im like talking to the same cousins
each CNY, the rest of them i hardly know or talk to them :\\

2nd day CNY, nothing to do man! bored at home.
then emmanuel and i went gym to run,
practice for road race x.x
went home for dinner, when my mum's side cousins came over
2nd time my mum and maid had to cook for like 7 families.
after drinking red wine and slacking awhile, they went home.
i went over to emma's house to drink beeeer hahaha.
dam ku -.-, but sian, just drink. slacked by the pool till
11.45pm then went home.

3rd day, 114's gathering! picnic was kinda fail hahaha.
brought along pasta, small hotdogs and fish nuggets then
i was thinking, so little ppl turning up for picnic,
better call those that are coming not to bring anymore food.
scared cannot finish cause later on got steamboat LOL.
then instead of the original plan to go marina barrage,
we went to vivo rooftop, that sheltered area with seats.
eat, play ban luck with small bets hahhaa. quite addictive luh
then we left the place at 7.10 to bugis, to meet up with
the rest of 114 for steamboat! sat edward's lorry to tamp.
haha first time, the rest also first time. fun.
i think this post dam long alr, so i should stop here hahaha.
back to homeworking

things are pretty awkward between us..
i have said and done all i could, & tried my best.
although i more or less know your answer already,
but i would like to hear it from you yourself..
i don't wish for us to be like this for long, even if it
doesn't turns out right. i still wish for us to remain as friends
like before.

2010-01-31T04:01:00.004+08:00

J1s in the house now!
finally the period where i start missing classes
and will lack behind like mad..
but at least, can make some friends and have some
fun before the real hell begins ;D
and yup my sis is also in. sorry to those that haven't
gotten to see her yet, like hardly any chance haha
sooner or later will get to see!
but she will paiseh also lah, and i also may feel
awkward in a way hahahhaa.
nothing much really happened on fri,
just that i came to meet 2 jokers, one from PRCS
another from st. gabriel.
keep kaciau-ing me when everyone learning mass dance
but thats better than them keeping to themselves right!
so many of them keep quiet one, but i also
got no right to comment on that cause i was the same
for the first few days before orientation LOL.
but i hope i'll get a class that will be quite high lah.
like my 114 people ;DD

cause being in 114 was the best thing to ever happened
in my life, and also in their life too right!
i miss our orientation, events that we participated tgt in,
my first CIP with gwen emmanuel yulin james,
the PW times, the studying times hahah all that
fond memories won't go away ;)
at least we all know that we're tgt in this jc hell life
doing homework till late, mugging for tests and all.
going to chiong dam hard after orientation :)

2010-01-24T21:34:00.004+08:00

heh.. nothing much to blog about except
that i had dinner out to celebrate my
mother's side ahma's bday :D
see all my cousins change also haha.
started to listen to my old ryan cabrera songs
again..and i still like this!! cos its true.
Ryan Cabrera - True ;DDD

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you
Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
Im afraid to move
Im weak
Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

I know when I go ill be on my way to you
The way thats true

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

2010-01-22T21:12:00.002+08:00

wooo weekends again.
so close to to j1s entering school and..
orientation! damn, going to miss alot of
lectures and be dam shagged
after everything ends.. 62359
still need to do tutorials and all!
today machiam reflection day for me.
keep thinking about past events, esp times
with 09s114.
life is never the same man in 420 lol..
i just hope we will continue hanging out tgt
even after As hahah, 46
with less interaction time tgt now. *Sigh*
at least i got a certain motivation now =PP
and with our new class identity that we
all hung on our bags ---- yoshii from mario!
hhaah dam cute sia. 5683
today's been fun w/ 8.

2010-01-19T23:02:00.004+08:00

hahaha. this song = my mood currently ;X
OK, due to feedbacks, i will use only bright colours lol
when with the girls to tampines today after ending
dam early like 1.45 today. even tho i look SIAN,
im not. xi guan already, plus quite entertaining hahah.
then saw leon's mum when we at some bread shop.
then ate at the steps outside the Meat Pao shop outside there,
got stairs up one you know? lol who i talking to sia.
after that when back in to look for class identity.
in the end found that super mario's YOSHI.
maybe abit weird cause only got yellow black red and pink.
like where's the original green sia o.O"
when back to sch for OGL meeting, basically they should
just summarise lah. no need say so much.
not much happened today sia, not much opp. to look also haha
except that leon finished like half my new impact PEACH sweet
in 1 friggin maths lecture. sms sms sms like machine sia.
k enjoy this dam old song on that i just changed on my blog. ;D

2010-01-18T00:11:00.005+08:00

heeeeh, a quite eventful week.

a video of our house dance! haha, spot me mannn..!
on the stage to the right somewhere. hahaha.
studied out today at coffeebean, damn nostalgic.
it's the place where i used to go before O levels in sec 4
soon soon, the stupid bras basah mrt circle line will open
which is just directly infront of the coffeebean ! woot.
but walao eh, waste my money.
the mucho mango was a scam sia.
sweet talk better LOL.
plus cheaper by 1/7 the price!!
dinner was at Astons.. wooo the place that everyone Qs
up for like 1 hour to get seated -.-
heng we arrive at such great timing, took like 15 mins
to get seated ;D black pepper steak. and again,
the question that i always have problem answering.
how well do you want your steak.
kns, was about to say like what, 70%? LOL
then emma just told me to say medium. k lah it was nice.
school week starts againnnn.. bleh.
time to sleep hahaha, rushed this post somewhat ;S

2010-01-13T23:10:00.004+08:00

had a blast today! damn fun haha
didnt know open house was this fun ;D
one of the few times left to playyyy
just before we mug mug mug x.x
interhouse mass dance was fun but too bad
didn't get to dance a part of the song >.>"
eyy just kept laughing with adelyn on stage
best way to keep ourself not nervous & smile LOL

after which we went to white sands agaiiinnn
to eat @ kopitiam. cause its mx's bday ^^
too bad we all poor poor now or else can eat
nicer food =\\ 458
but what was important rather, was the company ;)
for all i know, if sth was to happen to any of us,
4 the whole gang will be there for that person
through thick & thin, hot & cold, day & 9 hahahah!
timeeee to chiong hw!! 36

2010-01-12T23:08:00.008+08:00

sian day. well not really haha.
tried the new western food stall in sch
not bad lah, average haha.
but dam bastard, jap and western food stall
same family owning it. wth lah, never share.
then carried canteen tables n chairs for
open house prep. why now again?
house dance practice.
slack slack and talk then go home haha.
must be dam tired sia, i slept on the bus
all the way to the interchange -.-

right... haven't really started my engine to start mugging
still haven't gotten over 114 splitting. zzz. sucks
like it so much when we hang out and slack tgt.
haiissss. just when i wanted to pull away
you pulled me back.
TIME TO SLEEEEP ;D

2010-01-11T22:34:00.002+08:00

ALRIGHT!! NEW YEAR.
BACK TO SCHOOL. NEW CLASS.
SO.. A NEW BLOG LAYOUT AND
MORE DEDICATION TO BLOG.
since there's nothing much more to do this yr
other than mugging for As that's fast approaching.
the blog layout may be a little girlish,
but it'a the best i could find to express myself
at this point of time ;PP hint hint haha.
Alright back to 22 in new class again but this time,
19 girls. haha dam sad. later kena left out ;((
nah lah, won't happen right!! haha.

my sis received her O's results today.
she got 12 bleh, can't really go anywhere even with
the minus 2 points. most probably NYJC or MJC hahah.
she put NYJC as first choice though, for convenience.

can't wait for CNY to come though!!
our very own class tuan yuan fan, exciting sia.
my first time =X
alright ben shao ye need to sleep alr. night!

2009-12-01T01:38:00.003+08:00

shaggged ttm..!
can still feel my shoulders & legs aching =\\
but working at the IT fair @ EXPO ..
was quite enjoyable for a new experience ;D
practically talking to customers and spamming all
the specs of the laptops to them hahhaah.
had to stand for damn long too ><
11am to about 9.30-10pm sighhh..
but this just shows that money doesn't come in easily ^^
hai..this vacation is distancing me from .. even further
so.. today is like some sleep recovery day hahaha.
EL came to my house today o.o
woke me up by calling my phone x.x
then went down to fetch him with my retarded
just-wake-up hair hhahah.
but got nth in my house one lah.
just piano & keyboard. 2 comps & 2 laptops.
newly bought 42 inch tv in living room LOL.
and super salty chicken wings for lunch HAHA.
those feelings that i'd.. are they still inside me..?
so basically for the rest of the day..
i'm only nua-ing and dozing off here n there
will change blogskin tmr due to many complains.
<3 my immortal, the current bgm on my blog ^^
one of the songs that just brings me memories of
when i'm still at p5/6 reading fantasy books hahahaha.
so carefree & relaxed. didn't even care about PSLE then :O
if they were.. wouldn't i be hurting right now..?
alright time to sleeeeeeeeeeeeep. gg to sch tmr morn.
for bball & maybe squash? :D

2009-11-16T15:16:00.003+08:00

woot. sleeping more than 12 hours a day
is gheyyy :\\
sleep so much like quiteee useless leh.
cause i'll feel even more tired somehow >_>"

yup yup, new blogskin and new song.
nice right? hahaha.
the song lyrics even nicer although its a damn old one.
S Club 7 - I never had a dream come true.
even this band i've never heard of before o.o
gotta change the tagboard colour man
coz it seriously don't fit in D;
gonna watch movie with s114 classmates later!!
haha. i think everyone's feeling the same way now.
cherishing every moment we spent together
sharing the smiles and laughter
& some stupid moments =X
alright gonna go bathe and prepare to go alr ;DD

YULN UR TURN TO BLOG LAH.
lol

2009-11-13T01:48:00.006+08:00

WOO. tired ttm.

woke up at 8.15 am, rushed to change

went to friend's house to pass him 1 badminton racket

then started to go to EMMANUEL's condo to..

SWIM ;D

but retarded lah. cannot sun tan CAUSE the sun

blocked by some freaking big cloud.

damn selfish sia, keep the sun to itself =((

in the end just sit on the chair there n relax.

haven't gotten over it.

after that went to his house to bathe.

wa not bad sia, quite cosy the house hahahah.

then then, we took a bus to tamppp to join the rest

of the class for badminton =D

as usual lah, play like some joker haha.

then bathed after that for the SECOND time lolol.

neither do i want to let go of it.

we went to TM's kopitiam to eat.

walked round and still couldn't decide then just

settled for some crappy fried chicken chop + rice + soup.

dessert - soursop. not really nice lah.

i think i can make better sia. =X

then that yulin so inconsiderate, shoot the soursop seeds

all over the place with her pathetic aiming.

seriously sympathise with the old aunty that was

clearing our dishes. =(

just silently suffering whenever i'm alone..

and yep, damn tired that i fell asleep on the 1 hour bus ride

home.. then once i reached home > showered

and then K.O. on my bed ._. until like 8.40 i think.

JUST FINISHED I AND R. FINALLY TMR, THE LAST DAY

I'LL EVER SEE PW IN MY FACE =DDD

TIME FOR BED NOWWW.

where's my doraemon & time-machine when i really need them..?

2009-11-10T20:43:00.003+08:00

hahaha. BBQ + stayover at classmate's condo ;D
fun as always whenever 114 comes tgt =]]
more of such gatherings to come in dec yaaaa!?

oohh ya, i live up to my reputation as zhu wang sia.
i mean what's new :pp but never sleep until 12 hours leh
and i wasn't the first one to zZz. ;X
if only the movies we watched were more THRILLING,
ACTION-PACKED etc etc, i won't sleep de hahahha.
Awwww.. after BBQ didn't get to soak in pool =\\
oh wells got next time still.
argh my phone is like going to die soon AND ..
i left my charger at the house -.-
so much for a jay chou emo songs night hahah.
i lost a part of the confidence that i once had

AND AND monopoly was fun ;X dam long never playyy
but time srsly flies past toooo fast when
we're really, really enjoying ourselves.
soo many things that we want to do but due to certain
limitations like cannot tahan through the night ;pp
wished it didn't even happen so i could talk to you like before

oh wells, time to go slack ;D more chalets plsssssss D;
don't shut your doors on me just yet

2009-11-04T23:59:00.001+08:00

i'm sorry.

2009-10-31T00:13:00.004+08:00

meowwwww.
PW really irritates sometimes =pp
srsly no talent for presenting >.>

however i'm really really enjoying being in this class
and already am so comfortable that i don't
want to meet new friends anymore
in a separate class in j2. =((
so bonded yet we're gonna be ripped apart
just like that.
heaving a million sighs each time i think about it
SHINGZ man. aaaaah.
i'm also so tempted to try for retaining 4h2s
yet i know i just wanna get those easy As
and ignore bio. ._.
OGL groupings up>> didn't really ended up
where i wanted to be ;(
gonna be a busy busy week in preparation for chinese,
OP, I&R, and proposals for orientation2010 !

it's been awhile since i took a liking.
i like the way she poses with 1 arm folded
i like the way she speaks, somehow always entertaining me
i like the way she carries herself, ever mature
i like the way she pays close attention, in whatever she does
i like the way she laughs, sometimes tilting her head
& shrugging her shoulders at the same time
i like the way she turns off justin with his randomness
with the shingz(whatever) look & rolling of eyes ;p
i like so many other things that i don't wanna list
when can this liking ever turn into love. ;\

2009-10-27T01:12:00.003+08:00

d o n ' t g i v e u p !

no matter how demoralising

how discouraged

keep trying & trying

'cos we'll be waiting for one another ((:

we're all already so comfortable like this together

why can't we stay like this & graduate together..?

don't break into pieces yet

2009-10-17T00:58:00.004+08:00

received all my results alr.

srsly frustrated that my chem is a stupid 41

when i forked out so much time to chiong

sacrificing time to study for econs and bio which

got Us. nice -_-

so where does sadness come in?

it's when i think about what happens to the class

after promotional results are released.

will the class be split up or still stay the same?

even tho it's barely a year, but everyone has this same

strong urge to want to stay tgt as 09s114.

dream shattering, heartbreaking and emotion stirring week

>.>"

seriously, i want the whole 09s114 to promote together

everyone's already picking themselves up, putting on

fake strong fronts when they really need comforting inside

but this is all we can do,

staying strong and pray hard for the best =\\

still! we have to try to forget what's already been done

and shift our focus to PW. Screw pw luhh, always

comes at the wrong time.

this time, really tight for time with so much to prepare

sigh..

every time i try to fly, i fall

without my wings i feel so small

now looking back i wish i could rewind

2009-10-12T21:55:00.003+08:00

Zzzz. GP 49%.

ok lah, wasn't expecting to score high

since i had that dead sure feeling that i screwed up

my paper 1.

of all questions, i chose science & tech with crime. -_-

plus didn't use the style i always used - SV,OV,rebuttal

instead used the crappy 5 body paragraphs thing. gah

surprisingly still got a 26 out of 50 D:

better than my paper 2 which i found myself making stupid

mistakes and getting 23 -.-

how bout econs? saw econs teacher walking past

and the whole class gathered around to ask for marks.

saw the sheet of paper with a string of Us near the lower half

.. already know gg, got 39.2%!! wth! 0.8% to my subpass!!

sighh, today like dam demoralising, seeing the chem

answers that the lecturers went through as well.

and almost a waste of time >.> afterall so many free periods.

just pray that the other subjects can meet the critera ><

i kinda like her,

but i lost how it's like to love someone

probably got erased from my memory after

trying so hard previous times in the past..

2009-10-10T19:48:00.003+08:00

woooo. class chalet was fun ;D

but too bad had stupid PW lecture on wed

morning or else can rest up abit and

maybe prepare stuffs for chalet.

heng tues was holiday ;X slack much hahah.

the bbq food didn't reallyyy.. taste that good

but ok lah, got the atmosphere can already haha

managed to stay awake only until like 3-4?

then ppl start KO-ing one by one on the floor >.>

2nd day rented our bikes for our night cycling later on

^^ wa, 2nd time cycling took awhile to adjust first.

went down a slope that time i hesitated to break

and i not enough skilzzz to change direction..

so.. banged into some guy. luckily he strong sia.

he stopped my whole weight with the bike using 1 hand ;O

had dinner and rested awhile @ the chalet before

heading out =]]

the starting was terrible ahahaa, struggle like mad

to cycle properly but still managed to 'keep up' hahah.

cycle to bedok reservoir then rest at some place, idk whats

it called. everyone started to lie on the somewhat clean

wooden planked floor and sleep hahah. except for 4 jokers

including me cycling around making that bike noise =XX

sorry luhh, ppl 2nd time want to enjoy more hahaha.

after that cycled back then all decided that we should go

shower before going for breakfast, but.... in the end...

me and the 3 guys start to die on the bed.

i didn't know when 2 of them went downstairs to slp while

the other shifted to the floor and use some sleeping bag haha

just that when i woke up in the middle of my sleep i saw

all the girls on the bed alr! x.X and i was dammnnn cold

but no blanket or anything, just my jacket so i slept

like in a cross-legged sleeping manner =\

i think i kena zao geng sia LOL. sleep until lidat =\\

next morning!! check outtt, return bikes & have lunch before

we disperse for home! :D waaa return home only immediately

shower and die on bed man. and thanks to emmanuel lah,

kns my right index, middle and 4th finger dam pain.

internal bleeding lah, and nerve receptors all die alr.

play swing wan come twist until max then release, halfway

the metal ropes, or whatever its called, of the swing KIAP

my fingers then all come try help pull somemore when releasing

the swing and let me spin would be the fastest way. then cant

pull slowly turn reverse direction, wa almost faint sia lol.

ok. about today i blog another day =PP this post too long edi.

even tho the chalet wasn't really fantastic, we all enjoyed it yaaa?!

sooooo kkkk dec another oneee..! =))

LETS PROMOTE TOGETHER. 09S114

2009-10-04T00:10:00.002+08:00

sian.. last 2 papers maths & bio

but i'm already slacking ttm. -.-

srsly can't motivate myself to study bio.

bio isn't interesting anymore >.>

so much crazy contents and small details

that i can't be bothered to memorise.

dooooooooon't retain can already!! omg.

jy.

2009-09-25T21:34:00.003+08:00

sighh my hair sucks laaah. so short now -.-

but its all cause i don't wanna be barred

from doing promos. =\

just a few more hours to GP!! ARRGHH.

and i didn't do anything today =X

hope i don't suffer mental block tmrr.

cause i need to think critically for the...

argumentative essay + AQ! x.x

we'll all gonna pass yah yah? ;D and promoteee

toooo j2..!

3rd/4th time eating subway today.

feel like a joker at ordering what to eat =|

but niceee ahhah.

-"you eat like small boy leh, your mouth

everywhere also got food" hahaa quoted.

2009-09-21T19:22:00.003+08:00

ah fuck. of all days to get sick, a public holiday.

stupid clinics all closed. -.-

the feeling dam sucky lah, plus just now study

at WS's macs super ineffective cause i was feeling

like rubbish then can't really concentrate.

but also cannot concentrate cause got one

cedar girl not bad looking =XX

don't know where i saw her before though o.o

then yulin bought for me from those herbal tea shop

one luo han guo :DD before she left to meet her friend(s)

thanks alot ;D

ehh, also saw the SC vicepres, not jarvis but the other

with one more SC girl lolol.

damn, i think i'm going to sleep like now.

faster recovery with more sleep i hope >_>"

just as i was walking home listening to

'come clean' by hilary duff.. the part that went

'let the rain fall down & wake my ..' it poured heavily

-.- totally drenched me. plus i'm not feeling well.

wth.

2009-09-19T20:06:00.003+08:00

i..... BUAY TAHAN ALREADY LAHH.

walao eh, i cannot take longgg hours of studying -.-

even O levels still can maple through and

study not more than 3 hours a day ._.

just that srsly scared to retainnn. Rawr.

GP exam next sat...wth.

haiiishhh. 3 more weeks to tahan!!

5th oct .. then can look forward to the

non-stop fun :DD and chalet too provided it happens

>.>

2009-09-09T11:46:00.000+08:00

WAOOO. 15 hours of sleep since yesterday at 8pm.
O.O
must be damnn tired laaa =\\
after school ytd went to find my tjc friend go
study. ate megamcspicy AGAIN, but this type i took
1 hour to eat it LOL.. cause srsly dammm spicy.
bth man. but dam good to study w/ him.
anything dono, can ask him sure know one sia. =pp

ytd was also yoolin's bday.
last min got her 2 things >.>
run ard to find for anything tt is shinny to my eyes
lol. hope she likes it even tho not her li xiang li wu ><

2009-09-03T00:17:00.003+08:00

meh meh chi cao meh. lol randddom

eyy, sian. can see that everyone is already picking up the pace for promos.

i still feel that i'm really really lacking behind. .__.

at leastttt.. EOM is cleared :DD

one less thing to worry about.

aaah dam pek chek. see someeee poly guy wear our

sch's house tee to enter, then sit next to her.

wakaao. nvms, its only the first meeting. i THINK D:

28 days to promos, just like one whole month of Feb.

gaaahh, i can't seem to find that motivation to study bio.

lost the interest for that subject already. -.-

timeee to head for dream land with her inside this time LOL.

to 09s114:

no matter how hard it seems to press on,

how physically and emotionally tiring,

we'll always be there for one another right.

if any of you ever needs to let loose feelings,

just go ahead, we'll all understand :))

22 strong still next year!

2009-09-01T20:19:00.000+08:00

hahaah. <3 the time spent ytd with sec school friends and
studying tgt with charis today :))
ytd teacher's day celeb in school, nice performance :D
after that went to class and had all our subject tutors come
take pics + pass them gifts.
then spent remaining time playing twister although i
didn't get to play x((
but but but.. hahaha see the 4 girls play dam funny laah.

after that went immediately to my sec/pri school.
met up with sec school guys and chat chat chat :D
a lot to say sia. hahha, plus long time never seeeee.
went with nelson, cheeyang and don to go eat suki sushi buffet :DD
shiokk sia, just spam only. hahahah.
after tt went to tpy where don g2g, then left us 3 go walk ard
toa payoh see see. then bought a t-shirt with cy for 12.50 each :P
then ended up @ lib, after tt me and cy KO sleep, nel continue
playing his tap tap revenge lolol.
woke up like 15-20mins later then cy lost his phone even tho
he used it in the lib before we KO. then got this eye witness came
to us and said that got some 40ish man suspicious, could have taken
then we all split up and search ard tpy since he left onli 5 mins ago..
but then couldn't find. cy went to fill in lost item form in lib and
also POLICE post file report hahaha. funny lahh, cause @ the same time
got these 2 girls came in also and did the same but she lost
ipod touch, ezlink + IC. sad case. then a policeman on the sofa
also picked up a phone call, some person lost wallet LOL.
oh well, hope he managed to get back his phone.

todayy, supposed to be me charis and EMMANUEL study
but his father don't let him out. hais.. sad.
so i went to charis' condo's study room to studyy.
stupid noseee lah, use so many tissues cause forget
on heater this morning to bathe. didn't really dooo much
but having someone to study with - fun.
then took bus to hougang interchange to take mrt home,
the bus ZAI SIA, first time i see inside all pink & purple.
the seats so cool one siaaa. sorry lah if i slow. :\\
i wanted to take pic, so thought it would park at interchange
then didn't alight at the bus stop before interchange.
KENA SCAM! it didn't go in interchange but continue
moving dono where zzzz. then had to walk all the way baack
rawrrr.

tireeedd. i want myye sleep =(( promooos shoooo >=((
nice rainyy weather today though :))

2009-08-25T22:17:00.001+08:00

Arrrgghhhh!
can't seem to get her out of my head these 2 days!
sooo damn distracted because of her :pp
is this like a really strong infatuation? o.O
cannot be right? causeeee.. this crush is like really
getting stronger ._. and it's been more than 3 weeks
since i've placed my eyes on her ;X
her birthday also falls on the same day as mineeee! ;D
oh wells, don't have the time to do anything about it either
with promos in..36 days :O

2009-08-20T20:17:00.000+08:00

fgjskjasfjaskfjalsfnkdf tmr bio spa -___="
i don't think i've ever seen a pass for bio spa practices
-.- .. and we're supposed to get good enough so it
won't affect our A level results .. zzz..
it's gonna determine whether i drop bio too :P

todayy got free apples lmao.
first time see ppl bite apple then gum bleed so much
LOL... leon tsk tsk.
slackkk day also :DD PW free period,
chrystal (sth like social science lah.) talk in the hall.
basically just sat there and stone / sleep / stare at my
j1 EC. HAHAH. right in front of me somemore :DD
end of the week tmrr agaaaiin.. wkends..!
but theeeeen, promos in 40 days ._. sighh.
time to do some homework and memorise for
bio spa. >.>

2009-08-18T22:04:00.000+08:00

arghh damn it sia. -____-
the moment i thought i shan't give up bio cause
i understand whole of organisation of bacteria and
prokaryotes, suddenly rubbish photosynthesis comes in
and screws me up ._.
rubbish lehh, now still blur about the starting of tt chap.
need to read the super thick textbook again. haiis.

at least econs.. i don't find it that hard to understand,
just need to start memorizing stuffs and learning
the proper essay structure.. always never write 1 point per para,
have thesis / anti-thesis >.>
still contemplating whether to drop h2 bio or h2 econs
-.- .. no point if cannot get reasonable A level results
or somehow i become a genius over a short time and manage
to keep up with all 4 hahahaa, then don't need drop alr.

had a good laugh during lunch break todayy hahahha,
really woke me up from siannnnn mood. ;D

2009-08-17T01:55:00.004+08:00

haiiiisss.. so long never post. lazyy + nth much to blog bout.
6 weeks + to promos,
haven't really started mugging like i supposed to be.
i don't think i even know what its like to mug ._.
even O levels was like only do practice in school..
once @ home.. play maple >.> chat on msn blah blah.

but when the promos are coming quick..
don't know why ppl still must call each other muggers -.-
quite retarded leh, its just normal revision or doing
some extra work so got more free time on hand.
everyone wants to get promoted whattt.
sigh.. i think i've seen too much happening because
of midyears. =\\
i'm also considering dropping my h2 bio to h1 to spare
myself 4 periods, no SPA to revise for & no freak content.
chem and maths obviously not an option for me to drop
cause i like them better ^^ econs doesn't seem bad
to me .. just need to keep trying hahaa.

screw summation and mathematical induction lah.
almost nothing is getting into my head.
i think i wan change my body clock as well
go home bathe tan eat tan go slp till 10-11ish.
tan wake up and homework and study.
the atmosphere late into the night feeeeels better ;D

waa.. machiam writing essay already -.-
timeee to flyyy onto my bed & have sugar dreamsss ;)

oh ya, here's something that came to my mind

when i reminisced..

original song below~

i don't know what's wrong man, its just like a continuous cycle

like someone said, fight - peace - fight - peace..

i think the problem lies with me .___.

2009-08-02T22:59:00.000+08:00

waaaa siannnn.. 7 weeks including september hols
to promos..!

yesterday went with dad to parent-teacher meeting
1st slot of the day! ahaha. i think damn lucky to
get the 1st slot sia, cause both teachers still happy happy
then quite friendly with my dad also hahaha.
never really SHOOT me like machine gun =pp
then afternoon after lunch best lahh, i lie down on bed nia
and i fell asleep -______-" with the door closed,
windows slightly opened, no fan/air-con. -.-
wake up like machiam sauna siaaa zzzz.
evening went to beatriz's house for GPP. i think my group
first one to be finished sia.
rushed home with leon and mayxuen catch last bus/train.
zzzzz... my journey 1 hour -.-
but nice to nap on the almost empty bus >.>"

todayyyyy... as per normal on sundaysss..
home-working with emmanuel @ macs
nothing much l0lx.

2009-07-29T19:14:00.000+08:00

wth. whatever.
im damn tired of all the bs k.
2 faced freaks.
im already screwed with my results.
don't need more screwing to my life.

understand that ffs.

2009-07-23T21:20:00.002+08:00

aaaaahhh!! wakao.

the chinese listening so gayy, all the

answers so close to one another.

start so late too -___-" were already in the class

at like 2, then thought gonna start at 2.30 but

the radio played and announced will start at 3

wth. then everyone sleep lolol.

after that went to macs to homework.

gg, totally don't know much about buffer solutions.

slept through all the lectures since last thurs =XX

noooo tmr must see econs tutor for consultation

cause of midyear results too pathetic =\\

sigh.

ps. SEAWEED SHAKERS' BACK IN MACS =OO

"if anything happens to the 2 of us, just stand your ground"

wow, what a strong phrase said to me. i like it.

2009-07-22T23:18:00.003+08:00

mehhh... A level listening tmr!

must score full marks siol.. or else gg.

stupid oral lahh, had to screw my chinese.

passing isn't enough, later A level cert

srsly won't look nice with like 1 D there =((

i more worried that i'll fall asleep for listening

like i always do in class for normal listening practice

=OO

i think i'm screwed for econs as well.

i don't know man, when teacher goes through the

tutorial questions, suddenly everything i know comes

to mind. but when i'm doing it on my own..

i can flip pages forever and not find anything -__-!!

sighh.. lots of catching up to do.

ohh.. something upsettinggggg =((

for my stupid 4 Us, my father not going

to get me a coach for squash anymore -.-

walaaaao laaahh. wth. i can forever stay stagnant

and not improveeeee alr. damnnn.

2009-07-19T22:10:00.003+08:00

planned to do homework with emmanuel in

the morning today at 8 at my house's macs.

however... due to unforeseen circumstances..

i woke up at 9.10 =X standard yaya.. lol

sorry luhh, sleep at 3.30 doing other thingss =pp

and SORRY CHARIS! hahaha didn't know you

would want to come as well =\ purple line ppl haha.

then left at 2.15 cause gotta go out with family

yahh, harry potter @ cineleisure

BUT BUT BUT..

damn disappointing lah the movie. srsly.

i think its on of the most boring movie out of

all the harry potter ones.

no climax, just flat throughout. not to mention

ending with a cliffhanger zzzz. goblet of fire and

the one before this half blood prince were way better!

nvms. deathly hallows right? should be good.

ate sakae sushi >_>" so sian of it now hahahaa.

sooooo not looking forward to go school LOL.

damn sian of studying lehh. tmr got consolidation

exercise for chem eqm -.- damn.

i think that everyone's still hiding some parts of their

lives fearing that we will all change our impressions of

one another. hope im wrong

2009-07-19T02:29:00.002+08:00

now im super tired x.x !!

my friend called me like at freaking 3 am to ask me

go east coast with him. i was totally like wth??

but who cares, i still went hahahah.

wow and time seriously flies even just by talking rubbish.

next thing sunrise :O quite nice actually. after that when

shops started opening, went cycling :P

wow i fail -_____-" still sucked at the starting, after awhile

just mian qiang can cycle. those sharp corners = gg hahaha.

was out the whole dayy having fun ;D

bought new adidas shoes cause got 30% discount staff card

woooohooo ^____^

mann, back to jay chou songs now that i don't feel emo

when hearing them again. cause ah..

the lyrics all too meaningful already,

stimulates emo thoughts =X

harry potter in 12 hours time! gonna go study with emmanuel

later in the morning @ 8am.

my house's macs duh, actually he choose one so

he lost his advantage of choosing location.

he say my house there the macs peaceful LOL. ok lah quite true,

unless weekdays then got all the **** SA sec people.

see them want vomit all the digested burger / fries niaa.

k sleep time. or i'll be like some panda

2009-07-18T01:04:00.005+08:00

soooooo damn tired on thurs and yesterday..

prolly cause i stayed up till like 3am consecutively

to do work and do some catching up.

and lots of coffee too. shit, caffeine addict x.X

so you would see me dead in lectures most of the time was

even caught drooling when i woke up in bio by James LOL.

so malu lah. anyway my bloody lips is taking a damn long time to heal

-________-" but it doesn't hurt that much anymore..

still don't know why its called "cold sore" + what causes it

watching harry potter this sunday! ;D

but stupid luhh, so hard to find good cinema seats

cause GV , Shaw and Cathay most of them from fri-sun

already booked like mad,

left those lousy seats like 3 rows in front or damn to the sides. >.>"

in the end settled for the one on sun, backrow middle. :D

gonna watch with myyy familyy.

been so long since i went out together with them>_<"

getting distanttt alrr nooo.

yep im full of anticipation for the movieee!

EoM.. screwwww youuu.

i realised that 1 of my ideas messed up and hafta redo.

BUT i don't have the mood now.

so i'll prolly do it in the morning when i wake up D:

wth is your problem.
i seriously don't want to keep storing anger
inside me cause of the things you say
somehow it just agitates me tremendously which
has never happened before in my life.
yet you still confuse me by acting friendly sometimes

2009-07-15T23:52:00.003+08:00

mehhhh.. lots of homework >.>

& also damn lazy to do.

too many things happening lately too..

this kinda screwed up jc life is

making me start cursing anytime. anywhere.

sighh..wth weiyong! must stop scolding vulgarities alr!

hahaha. @_@"

looking back to my midyears.. srsly 4 Us is stupid.

i see all the kinds of retarded mistakes for maths &

chem. econs if i STUDIED i wouldn't get what i did.

afterall only studied unit 1 out of the 5 units lolol.

bio prolly the only exception cause hard to determine

the keywords they want -___-" so specific.

at least my GP got E and chinese got 58 which is C/D?

idk, idc. the results don't matter anyway,

what does is getting promoted to j2 and OF COURSE

with everyone from s114.

so we shouldn't get all emo over results, its just cause

we're lazy to mug but we're damn smart

so we can do it :DD back to homework then!

kinda tired but what can i do?

feels damn good to just rest in bed and dream.. even if it's for just awhile.

I have U hahah.

2009-07-13T21:39:00.003+08:00

suddenly felt like blogging for some reasons >.>

midyears over~! and.. tooooooot...

4 Us for my 4 H2s D; sian!

screwed much lahh, i know i didn't really put in

any effort to study.. but then.. at least a sub-pass right?!

sigh. LOTS of catching up to do, and LOTS of homework

now that term 3 started. srsly can't accumulate work..

or else there will never be a stress-free day.

mehh, but we have each other to die tgt and drown in work.

=))

on a brighter note, i think 09s114 is getting closer ((;

everyone was with their own cliques and there wasn't

really much mixing tgt >.>" but we're all slowly getting

out of our shells and all, accepting one another.

kay not used to saying such things man. Zzz haaha.

we'll be together till A levels right! :D

ARRRGHH. other than screwing up midyears, freaking

A level chinese oral was BS. when you're dead will you want

to donate ur organs to others? wth lah, anything you ask

is fine but not something that i totally have no exposure to,

and so many terms i don't know how to say / translate in chinese D:

damn. oh well.. srsly hope i can get that merit at least x((

aightt!! back to homework-ing!

maybe what he said was true.. we're lucky that we're guys

cause guys tend to make more logical judgements/decisions

than base them on feelings alone..

2009-05-17T23:18:00.002+08:00

damn. chem test and mats test.

stacking homework too =|

you're slacking too much weiyong.

omgggg i see dark eye rings D:

2009-05-14T00:01:00.001+08:00

econs test. pokemon. sleep.

lost my bloooody foolscap lah.

there goes all my notes and some of my

maths notes & tutorials that i just chuck in.

-___-

2009-05-12T22:33:00.003+08:00

tiring day huh.. lol.
maths lecture was the best, 5 guys including me
sitting in a row, all sleeping hahahha.
and of course others were dozing off as well >.>"
practically every single lecture today was killer..!
already trying damn hard to stay awake hahahaa.

squash today? coach fuckin pms. then stayed until
damn late too. reach home like 10, eat dinner and bathe.
now blogging before i get to homework =X

this week sucks man.. tight schedule
GPP..econs test on thurs, bio test on fri.
chinese oral tmr! =\ problem based learning for chem proposal thurs..
zzz.. srsly super shagged already lahhh. haix.
why never go polyyyy?!

2009-05-04T22:03:00.002+08:00

disappointment.. regret.. what not.
disgust from the meridians. fucking don't jeer at others.
learn to watch the game before making any stupid remarks.
so what if RJC and ACJC played rough?
our team isn't CLEAN at all.
on the surface wow, meridian is cool and si wen type of school.
underneath lies a fucking disgusting ____.

just random remarks, not really feeling good today.

2009-05-02T18:09:00.003+08:00

heh. how's eating pie (PI) for labour day?

didn't go for cheerleading practice D:

cause.. i woke up at like 1.30pm hahaha.

then started eating pie - cutting word count for PI

retardeddd microsoft word 2008 sucks.

it's super annoying when it stops responding or

just errors for no reason. have to like save every sentence

i type -____- SO i gave up.

then continued doing later in the evening.

i got my contactssss. monthlyy one.

wahh i spent like freaking 1 hour sitting at the optician

trying to put it on and removing it only like twice??

i scared i hurt my eyes :(( so don't really dare touch hahaha.

today wore them again! i seriously think if i want to put

for school, have to wake up like 20 mins earlier? =\

sigh, i'm starting to agree with emmanuel.

we have no life and it feels so void without online games

HAHA. where's all the mapling and all man! =((

OK. gl for everyone finishing up PI :DD

2009-04-29T21:57:00.003+08:00

grats to me seeing people removing their masks
so unsightly what's beneath. D:
when people keep me in the dark.. i so LOVE it.

i can say all these words filled with anger and disgust
but i still can't bring myself to hate and express it in RL.
it's not in my nature
i'll just shut it in somewhere.

on a brighter notem still super thankful for friends
that care and ask if i'm alright. feel damn bad if i dragged
y'all into my dumb problems =\

fucked up. (:

2009-04-28T21:14:00.004+08:00

back to blogger.

not that i don't like livejournal anymore >.>

yeah just fucking fed up now.

love it when i see the true nature

of some people. its so true, as time passes by,

we'll gradually start to see one another's character in full.

you guys got what you wanted so stop giving bullshit

from now onwards or i'll seriously piss the fuck out of me.

i'm glad that i can stop trying to impress people & teachers

and slack a little down.

like how others treat me, i'll give back the same treatment

you gave me >:)

sorry guys if i'm going to change into someone different

something just triggered it, irreversible like a drop

of ink in a bottle of water. once tainted - remain the same.

watch out, i'll be looking at how you all perform

Friday, 20 Nov 2008

2008-11-21T02:19:00.002+08:00

OKAY, FORGOT TO UPDATE THIS.
I'M NOT GOING TO POST HERE ANYMORE
BECAUSE NOW I MOVED TO LJ.
LJ IS GOOD. ( DONT THINK SICK DAMNIT )
SO.. HERE IT IS..
NICRAEMON.LIVEJOURNAL.COM

=DD

Monday Blues 0.o

2008-10-13T22:08:00.004+08:00

slept almost 12 hours if not for the rainy morning!!
friggin thunder woke me up from my lala land Zzzz.
decided to focus chem for today (1 day 1 subject)
was feeling real bored and happened to find out tt
2 friends were at my usual study spot - coffeebean
at dhoby ghaut area so decided to go join them =DD
BUT.. i took real long to get there on foot, injured the
back of my ankle -__-.. i was jumping onto bed
and i kicked a the wooden side table =.= freaking
pain. even when walking .. have to limp sia but i tried
not to make it so obvious.. ><
had dinner at ard 8 at the aircon kopitiam next to it
we finished amazingly quick.. and since someone
had sch and still studied tgt.. so being UNDERSTANDING
ppl.. we decided to go home =pp
once home.. finish up whatever i feel i should tan
watch the recorded the taiwan dance show xD
next monday.. O's starts.. COME!! and faster end!!

damn bored.. is there anyone out there capable of
lighting up the colours of my world?

Zzzzzz..

2008-10-05T21:34:00.003+08:00

went to vjc open house ytd with 2 classmates
their theme was F1 racing o.O ..
walk ard sch.. got 2 F1 simulators for tries..
but friggin $2 sia.. but everytime we walk by there,
bo lang haha. unexpectedly also saw 2 friends o.O
or they saw me and called me first lol.. me very blur
and CLUMSY lah, so many steps i didn't see,
kept "falling" and "tripping" until 1 of my fren keep suan me
say EHEH WAIT GOT STEP. CAREFUL zzz
vjc is dam small.. such that we kept walking round n round
their mass dance looked fun ~.~
cos of our new system that all polys and JCs start same time
2nd jan.. only got 1 time fill in form and see where u posted
by end of jan, SO.. i thought can't appeal siol.. lucky i checked
still can ~ went to marine parade lib to study after
friggin crowded and we changed places once..
first we sat at CHILDREN READING CORNER. the
table is like so bloody short la, after 1 hour kena chased
off by the lib person. "This place is for children to read storybooks,
please move elsewhere, there are plenty of spaces."
kenasai everywhere and corner also have.
but lucky the cafe below HAPPENED to have 1 table woooo
chiong! tan sat there till 4+.
after we dispersed.. i went somewhere again to complete my bio
papers and had niceeeee pasta for dinner.
celebrated someone's birthday last min at 11pm and went home
reallyyyy late lol.. 1am.. in a car of cos keke

oooo not bad.. tu zi went in next round of super band

O.o ..

2008-09-14T21:57:00.002+08:00

back from e longggg rest of no updates!
e bleach movie nt bad rite? ^^ lol *nudge*
prelims finally over and at e same time.. my
slack week is over =( .. it was monday 11.25-2
tues, wed don't have to go and thurs fri ends at 9
shiok rite?? *taunt* keke
plus recently sleeeeeep alot.. wonder why :P
considering to take over e title of lord of e pigs.
piggy-kun/san ? BEN DA YE! lol
so i guess everyone taking Os SHOULD be almost
well-prepared i assume?? *hint* >=)
36 more days to first paper.. chem paper 2..
i think suddenly i'm as confident for chem as my maths
but what have i been doing lately? SLEEP , TV , MSN
haix.. gonna get back some prelim results back tmr..
am not gonna be surprised when i see physics one lol.
paper 2 KILLED ! =(
alright best of luck to preparations to those who should!

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-Saturday, 21 Aug ' 08

2008-08-31T00:17:00.005+08:00

woo.. term 3 holidays~
thursday no papers so stay home
friday halfday, teachers' day celeb. but
didn't turn up cos i gathered from my kaki
not many of them going. so follow the crowd
i shall excuse myself for tt day lol.
friggin get sore throat again! wth..
faster become cough, i hate the uncomfortable
swallowing feeling zzz..
but still eat pasta lolol.
i think its the weather + too heaty cos keep snacking
recently start playing mahjong on viwawa keke
learnt it in 3 games playing at friend's hse.
not bad right?? lol..
came home kinda late today.. sat 2nd last train
lol reminds me of last time man.. always rushing
for last train with PS and actually missed 1 time!!
bo bian take cab home lol.
okok tired.. i shall end here.. just ate finish my
green bean soup lol..

unparalleled eccentricity

IT'S PEANUT BUTTER JELLY TIME

2008-08-14T20:06:00.002+08:00

so.... WADDA HELL.. B4 for chinese =.=
i decided to retake after getting many many
friends' opinions =P afterall.. distinction for
oral + listening component = chance to get A2?
and.. i don't think gonna screw up the paper 2 second time
learn from mistakes! tan switch gear 4 and chiong!
nvm that was random
had english 'O' oral today.. i totally have no LUCK
with oral at all. Chinese oral get some topic that no one
would ever predict and so limited on what u can say
English prelim oral kena HOD english examiner -__-
now the real thing.. kena 2 man, one of which is american
but my father told me.. never judge a book by its cover &
what "smiling tiger" so i shall believe that i will get good
marks =X
prelims...... next monday... zzz .. so many things i WANT
to do.. so many things i HAVE to do.. raahhh~!
to answer some questions.. what topic i kena for oral.
1st qn : What was e competition u entered?
2nd qn : Do u think children should do more outdoor activities?
Picture : those kinda scene at the beach for primary school
oral lolol.. build sandcastle.. i said the shape of the sand structure
somewhat resembles the esplanade! nice right.

-Tuesday, 29 July ' 08

2008-07-29T18:03:00.004+08:00

the moree we get together

together, together

the moree we get together,

the happier we'll be..

for ur frens are my frens

and my frens are ur frens

the moree we get together

the happier we'll be ~ ~

SIAN. tmr e.maths test tan on fri

ss+history , english and chem SPA

monday physics SPA and bio test

tues a.maths test and wed physics test

friggin alot things to study, they aren't 1

chapter tests.. rawrr ...

ytd had english prelim oral and my

examiner is the HOD of english and

is strict zzz SUEY ! i think screw up my

reading but my picture was ok.. and

conversation had lots of shit to talk and his

comments were try to talk more on main

topic before branching out .. so not tt bad

i guess. of 9 examiners i had to get him

sian wor.. ate LAKSA today for lunch haaa

i think the last time i ate it was like last yr?

i can't rmb =\ missed friggin nice movies..

wanted, hancock, hellboy, darkknight..

DAMN.. oh well..

Thursday, 10 July ' 08

2008-07-10T21:56:00.003+08:00

"It's mine, my own, my precious"
still remember this? it's from Lord of the Rings
i used it for my compo today lol..
how self-centered we are sometimes..
tt its scary isn't it.
next tues chinese O's listening ^^
gonna get at least 18/20 to bring my marks up
least i could do for not putting enough effort
for the paper 1 and 2 i guess.
sore throat sucks. i rampaged my fridge for
anything i could use to help my throat recover
from honey to herbal drinks, wadeva i could find.
yep yep new blog layout =) new start.
gonna start intensive revisions yah. i'll help
anyone who wants my help as much too :P
so don't be shy !

i'll help you get there.. someday

Monday, 30 June ' 08

2008-06-30T18:48:00.002+08:00

wa bastard sia.. today's chinese oral..
even moi school's teachers are like wa, MOE
so bad, come out this kinda topic.
it was about government disallowing shops
from displaying goods outside their shop.. why?
what are the good or bad thing bout not allowing
them to do so? how do u think it will affect the public
bla bla.. zzz wan bomb oso nth much to bomb..
i was hoping some qing shao nian wen ti or losing
interest in mother tongue language, bicycle users
somewhere along these line lah. but luckily got easy
reading passage to cover up. I HOPE they wont
so niao and like moderate the marks else.. haix GG
its raining heavily now.. atmosphere so quiet
i need some going out! dont care play sports or
shopping or eating. i wan see crowds of people
prelims coming.. 18 aug.. heh so soon O's will be
done and over with!
continuing to push on!

life's but a walking shadow

-Sunday, 22 June ' 08

2008-06-22T00:55:00.002+08:00

what a gift time is.. something that a few are

ignorant of it, some wished there was more, some

planned theirs and others just want it to pass quickly.

i probably fall under those that want more time to

spend outside, not like i dont know how to prioritise,

its cos of some circumstances which i will not care bout

whatever u think it is for it doesnt affect me.

often we dont get chances to really ENJOY a day thats

1 of e reasons.

ARGH.. time is going to fast, that its so hard to keep

things lasting..

not everything revolves around you ( many people )

if u are not serious why bother starting,

if u knew im always such a letdown why place so much

hopes that i sometimes seriously cant fulfill

i dont need people to shed crocodile tears for me also

cos i have enough people's concern and im already VERY

CONTENTED and SATISFIED. they are people who really

UNDERSTANDS me

well thats just a rash reflection.. not in the best of mood,

can't really close my eyes.. too many crap on my mind again

these few days im thankful for those who were with me

liven my spirits, made me laugh.. that i cant bear to leave

the very gathering lol.. but its all good! =)

-Wednesday, 11 June ' 08

2008-06-11T22:28:00.002+08:00

aaahh~~~ still tired from a long day on monday!
it started off in the morning.. tuition outing to
Mind's Cafe at clarke quay. haf to say lots of people
went as well as my tuition mates. lunch still no
appetite haha.. so eat like 1/4 of my usual lunch..
partly was the fried rice's fault.. seafood zzz..
then we played 2 group games organized by the ppl
there.. it was fun but sian ah.. the grouping sucked
can't be with people i want to be with =\ oh well..
then after that we continued to play with games we
chose / wanted to play and it was quite fun =DD
then after that took the chartered bus back to potong
pasir and some went home.. some stayed for events
later on after dinner.. so at 8 .. cabbed to kallang leisure park
well.. most of them went to bowl.. so i followed then
in the end kena stuck there till like 9.40pm which was
when i finished my game LOL! it was my first time zz
then i decided to find some of them at the arcade
WTF.. arcade closes at 10 and stops exchanging token
at 9.30.. =.= so didn't get to play haix.. so went back
to see the others bowl x] hmm.. and it ended at 10.30
where they have to start heading home. HOWEVER..
2 sec 3s, 2 sec 4s + me and 2 teachers went for FREE KTV
hahaaa.. of cos all so paiseh at first and it was first time
for us except the 2 teachers.. but after awhile quite fun
and it lasted all the way to 12.40am! DIE.. i nvr bring house
keys but too bad or luckily i can spam call my maid's hp
and get her to open door for me =) but the bowling part
onwards would be much more fun with someone wor!
oh well got many other chance =pp
then.. pingsiong introduced me one nice jap show =X
11 episodes.. and got ERIKA TODA in it! YES YES
it's the death note's MISA AMANE's actress.
somehow it may change ur perception of those kind of
ppl's attitude and character so go watch it! " Liar Game "
damn.. i haven't started any revision this holiday..
so lai lai jio me out to study tgt! okok? =S

-Sunday, 31 May ' 08

2008-06-01T21:45:00.005+08:00

woo Accuracy of Death aka Sweet Rain!!
watched it on friday at the only possible timing 4.10pm
at the only possible cinema which me and my
tuition friends could becos of the june hols. lessons gah.
takeshi kaneshiro!! he's super slow in the movie sia..
"are u trying to pick me up?" "i'm hard to look at" these
kinda things he don't catch the meaning lol..
but he makes the movie nice
then after that we went to chalet~ wee wu wee. tuition's one.
BBQ becos we came quite late becos of distance from vivo to
pasir ris .. left.. chicken wings and chicken chop only.. haix..
then lots of time to chat! and play. i suggested that we watch
narnia at 3.30 am and we went! haha it was good.
but still got ppl sleep for awhile and i'm disturbed
by the sec 3 girls man.. my sis included.. they talk talk like
nobody else in the cinema
zzz.. then finished at 6am, walk back to chalet keke.. the rest
like finished 60 rounds of mahjong? lol.
by the time i reach home at 10+.. i str8 away bathe and fall
onto my nice nice bed and slp till 4-5.. aww i missed breakfast
and lunch -__- so had early dinner
to rate the whole thing.. : 4.5 / 5 !!
i'd love to have another day
like that again.. just enjoy each other's company and laugh

i was living like i was asleep
i’ll transform sadness into kindness
once i’ve set my true self free
the pain will disappear
waiting for someone to find a place with me
where the sun shines
a tomorrow i've never seen

-Tuesday, 27 May ' 08

2008-05-27T18:37:00.005+08:00

Ahh..~ the feeling of midyears and
O level chinese over is GOOD!!
>> lazy << nvr post .. i feel my life being drained
by playing too much comp.. watching tv.. going out
and bgr.. damn.. after i clarified with my friend(s)..
i feel that all these is just a waste of my time
and effort, and i don't deserve this. why? becos
if i'm going to aim high and reach far, i shudn't be
fooling around espiecially during an easy, impt year.
hope i at least get a b4 for this O level chinese p1, p2
midyear results out too. can't say im unhappy with it
cos i know myself that i only put in 20% effort
still fooling around hah..
English A2 - 72.0%
Chinese B4 - 60.3%
E.maths A1 - 81.9%
A.maths A1 - 81.1%
Pure phy A2 - 73.3%
P. chem A1 - 75.4%
P. bio A2 - 70.8%
Comb.Humanities(SS+His) C5 - 56.0%
Civics and Moral Edu (LOL) A
Class position: 9
Level position: 11 (bullshit!!)

-Sunday, 11 May ' 08

2008-05-11T21:31:00.002+08:00

friday
had bio paper 2.. Zzz i actually
forgot the name of a damn obvious thing
umbilical cord =.=.. i stone at that label
the part qn thinkin what tube.. zzzz
but nvm. after that meet up with tuition tcher
and 2 other tuitionmates watch speed racer
movie wasn't that bad except for the damn
childish background of the main char when
he young =.= -1 star for me. so i gave 4 stars
suay suay i also can't eat popcorn or anything
cos i just tightened my braces.. zzz and
this time was super tight
can't even bite sia.. then.. after movie
abit late for tuition.. quite slack since tests
already over..

Saturday
hahaaa! my room got repainted and
new furnitures!! new bed and cupboards.
it's been my whole life sleeping on my
old bed and looking at the same cupboard
finally changed ~ my bed is super high now
cos it's made that things can be put beneath
and i nearly fell off my bed while slping =_=..

Sunday
happy mother's day eh..?
it's more a sad day for me. ahma crying
first thing in the morning becos of my stubborn
ahgong. then later afternoon my family and i go
visit my mother's side ahgong in hospital..
he's very sick.. then see them tear.. the feeling
is super helpless and saddening.
somehow i also easily provoked these few days..
and i feel super tired suddenly.. the days so grey
if i do anything wrong then please understand
but it's still an important year.. can't let
myself down yet

perfections may not be perfect
cause imperfections is what it lacks

-Wednesday, 7 May ' 08

2008-05-07T10:59:00.003+08:00

haix bullshit lahh.. had a damn bad dream
last night.. worse of all.. my phone i put on
my bed and didn't keypad lock.. then
it kept calling different people.. and called
that someone i dam scared of -___-"
but i suddenly woke up and quickly
end call but too late liao got some rings..
i immediately switch off phone, didn't want
to be called or receive sms by that person
somemore after having some bad dream
that feeling at that point of time really SUCKS.
why am i still so damn scared of the person?
like an sms is a dagger pointing at me
smacking myself , "weiyong wake up lah,
why the hell u keep thinking so much"
other than that.. midyear papers are ok
difficulty.. except for chinese paper 2..
i stone at compre passage A.. don't
even understand a thing. well that's all for
today..

for i don't remember the good and sweet things anymore
i only remember the bad and hurting moments
that i kept wanting to avoid being reminded of
is there a cure to this?

-Sunday, 4 May ' 08

2008-05-04T22:08:00.003+08:00

Woo. Midyears huh..
how's everyone doing?
got so many kinds of feedback..
"DIE LE.." "no kick la." "not so bad.."
hahaa.. but goodluck peeps..
for the rest of the upcoming papers!
just a week or two then can breathe
fresh air le~ =DD
so far.. for me quite ok ba..
but somehow my a.maths paper 1
already marked by other class tcher
and my frens from there kept disturbing
me say i 71/80.. hopefully its real lol..
today my ahgong bday.. got karoke
celebration at some RC downstairs..
means got buffet eat lol =P
sad la. only my grandparents bday
got buffet.. mine dont haf neh.. but
i got friends help me buy cake all that..
already enough :D hor hor lol..
once again.. GAMBATEH everyone
in whatever u do.

why is the damn weather so hot?

-Monday, 21 April ' 08

2008-04-21T21:46:00.004+08:00

yay sweet 16~ =D
thanks to pingsiong,fiona,jon,peiyan for giving
me a nice surprise on saturday =)
it was sooo unexpected.. i was dumb for
one day.. didn't find anything suspicious
even though i like heard the word cake x.x ..
of cos we studied first at bugis national lib.
so touched xD.. they got me an ice-cream cake
what i wanted =PP
but haix.. nobody in my school/class rmbs
my bday!! wth.. seeing this..
i didn't even bother to say
but so what?? i have all the friends i need already
that help celebrate my bday, some ppl sms-ed
me happy bday at midnight plus.. touched..
i was so happy over saturday and them smsing me
that i cried to sleep. that explains my super red
and sticky eyes this morning.
ate cake and dinner with family =D pizzaaaa..
before that i went out with tuition teacher
to have some ala carte sakae dishes..shisamo =X
my comp kinda sot sot today so i'll post a few
pics next post (:
thanks guys, a million times.

-Monday , 14 April ' 08

2008-04-14T21:39:00.005+08:00

whoops for my super dead blog.
heheh.. have been doing other stuffs =X
yeah.. less than 7 days to a special day
hoho ~ i'm waiting..
happy mood these 2 weeks, no spoilers
消失的下雨天我好想再淋一遍
and i did and slipped/fell after many
slight slips zzz.. suay the floor was
too slippery ( cannot blame my slippers )
was looking through all the pictures
of my New Zealand trip..
it gave me happy relaxing memories ye..
and also the tests spree is slowly ending
but nearing the mid-years..
more just keeps coming and bigger as well
LOL..

this looks nice aye? haha ALL MINE..

i ain't gonna play the fool anymore

-Saturday, 5 April ' 08

2008-04-05T00:29:00.000+08:00

Hm... long time nvr post..
midyrs coming!! like.. 24th
1 month later from midyr..
O'level chinese.. fast..
Anyways these days my mood is
GOOD. always looking forward to
wkends lol. tests results? so far
(so)REAL good =X must maintain!
now motivated to play my keyboard
again =] don't ask why

i promise you
you are not alone
when the lights go out at night
when you're feeling lost inside..

-Tuesday, 25 March ' 08

2008-03-25T18:28:00.004+08:00

Friday
went to sentosa~ church outing
my friend who invited me thr
didn't turn up -__-" so i became
a group's amazing race leader.. zz
but then quite fun =\\ and last stn..
made me totally wet~! before the merlion
got 1 stretch of water fountain or wadeva
did a challenge there and kena scolded
by sentosa admins
cos not supposed to do any activities
at that area =X but heck care~
did water baptism! ye! tiring day.

Saturday
went out with the same friends except
for one who pang seh.. =\\
it was after my haircut at YISHUN..
then go all the way to TAMPINES then
to parkway parade lol. walk walk play..
eat pastamania. lol other time upload the
pic i took of my super small pizza sia.
heng i eat very little or else not full =X
miss last train LOL.. nvm taxi nia~
yet another tiring and fun day.

Sunday
woke up reading a crappy sms.
then the whole day i was moody.
surely at least 5 people noticed
i shouldn't be sayin this but tt day
was totally f***ed up
even the smallest action could provoke
me into rage.. crappy day

Monday
school was normal.. 2 tests,
history and E.maths.. then aft sch
was chinese oral. topic - CIP
teacher reviewed to us the next day
that it was BADLY done on the whole
for those who did it. haix..
worse of all.. when i came home
my whole body was aching and
kept sneezing.. whole day usage of tissue
= 7 packets -___-" then went to see doc
in the evening.. took MC but mother
say MUST go sch still zzz..
but so many frens still guan xin wo wors~
yay =p

Tuesday
so TIRED ! medicine working its effect
make me drowsy ._. and.. got bio and
A.maths test.. dang it obviously nvr study
but still ok ok difficulty.
other than that.. nothing outstanding happened
except for one. a friend sent me a powerpoint
she made just for me sia.. main aim : cheer up
cause there are always friends standin by me
=))

-Wednesday, 19 March ' 08

2008-03-19T22:01:00.002+08:00

i'm falling from grace
i'm losing faith
i'm going insane
i'm lost in my world
i'm looking for a place
i'm chasing my dreams
i'm wondering what crap i'm doing
i'm not making sense
i'm not living up to my own expectations
i'm not learning from mistakes
i'm putting my future at risk
i'm a stupid joke

i'm seeing a beautiful dream again
yet it seems like i'm chasing the end
of the rainbow
i lack the confidence to try to get
it might just turn out to be another mistake

-Tuesday, 18 March ' 08

2008-03-18T16:00:00.005+08:00

nice emo songs =pp.. :

and a happy dance along song!
mus learn to dance ok! =X

and happy birthday peiyan~! may all ur
wishes come true! =D

Sunday, 16 March ' 08

2008-03-16T00:48:00.003+08:00

yea ~ step up 2 was nice
watched with 3 BEST friends =DD
as usual i late for the meeting lol
we walked around.. orchard then
bugis.. playing arcade and chatting.
time passes so fast!! the warmth
and feeling of just being with friends
is enough happiness for me (:
zzz sia. sth wrong with my legs
after watching step up 2 LOL..
on mrt i keep losing balance -__-"
make them laugh hahas :X
ended the day late though,
reached home at 12.02am
we 2 guys so gentlemanly.. accompany
one of the girls to chua chu kang!!
when we stay at north east line side
but sorry py we couldn't do the same
all the way to eunos.. ._.
almost missed the last mrt!! =\
but great day yah.
thanks guys <33

goodbye to those sad days
flying out to the future aiming to go far
i'll go the distance, i won't hide anymore
i'll take in the truth
those days won't come back again
from here on out my one dream has begun

-Saturday, 15 March ' 08

2008-03-15T01:18:00.002+08:00

heh.. this tiring holiday gonna
come to an end soon..
moody cos of the never-ending rain
tired and frustrated cos of the
sleepless nights i had
woke up like 3-4 frickin times
for no apparent reason.
maybe i had a bad dream but i don't
remember any of it
i wanted to just knock my head
against the wall, faint and then sleep
yet again so many things on my mind
mixed everywhere and confused..
wo.. sky of love! not a bad movie
he wished to be the sky
i wanna wish that too
and do what he would,
watch over that girl while for me
i'll watch over those that show
me lots of care and concern <3

it looks like i've lost sight of what reality is
and whether the path i've chosen is right or not
when i carry myself in a cheerful manner
loneliness crosses over
what sort of face is the real me making?
i'll move on with my two feet
life still goes on with neverending dreams

-Monday, 10 Feb ' 08

2008-03-10T22:14:00.007+08:00

watched leap years last sat

cannot take that movie

those quotes sia.. zzz

but it was so-so bah.. 2 half stars?

but watched at tamp mall..

HAIX.. tampines.. why do

i have so many memories of u.

tamp mall - ice kachang.

go die lah.. ask me eat rock..

i think i make nicer lol :X

yesterday went out with some

friends. seriously i laughed

all my shitty things away

never felt so happy and free
that moment nothing can dampen

my good mood at all =DD

i lose something, i gain a whole

bunch of good things. espiecially..

i'm happy to have these friends

so don't say going out/finding u all

is a waste of my time. it isn't!

heres a pic of my favourite teh beng

at mos burger LOL.. ,

the ROCK hard ice-kachang and

the GOOD to eat ice-kachang

i've chosen to move on with life.

i will believe that

there is someone better.

i think i found someone

but i'm not sure whether history

will repeat itself ..

if only fate will place us tgt..

what a great priviledge

it would be..

Thursday, 4 March ' 08

2008-03-04T22:43:00.002+08:00

wooo.. next wk is finally march hols!
but so what?! it just means O's
are getting nearer.. rawr
how's everyone getting on with sch?
managing well? screwed up or
flung any tests?
this friday got parent-teacher meeting..
then my form-teacher won't be ard
so guess who are my class' parents
meeting? the principal !! wth..
best class , special treatment sia..
so how she select whose must go?
as long as u get 2 B4s and below
must go . zzz
i asked her whether 5 A1s & 1 A2
can not go. still can't diao..
not bad lah.. first term with
these results.. still got time~

it's easier to run , replacing the pain
with something NUMB..
it's so much easier to go
then face all this pain here
something has been take away from
deep inside of me
wounds so deep they never show
never go away
all the helplessness inside
pretending i don't feel misplaced
much simpler than change

-Thursday, 28 Feb ' 08

2008-02-28T22:14:00.003+08:00

"Outside" Me.
what some classmates thought
of my "outside" character.
- humorous , obedient honest
- positive , optimistic , fun-loving
- gentlemanly , caring , helpful
- quiet , funny , mad
- EMO , pessimistic , sadistic
- calm , cool

but sometimes the outside never
looked the same as the inside..
i never believed they were..
everyone knows their own "inside"
better than anyone else.
different people , different perspectives
some feel indifferent ,
some feel the world crashing down
always true that everyone has at
least someone to tell their worries,
fears, thoughts, dreams with
let's run this life's race together!

i cry ten thousand times
but you don't care
i keep thinking of you but you think
of someone else
i'd do anything for you to smile but
my pain equates to your happiness
pathetic , insecure , stubborn
how silly can i get

-Wednesday, 27 Feb ' 08

2008-02-27T22:55:00.002+08:00

was clearing my old phone's
sms inbox for my mum's usage..
when i stumbled upon these 2
sms-es from 'her'..
and of course.. i was like
adgsdhsdykytkgh .. crap
" It's okay. Thanks for everything
i couldn't accept. "
and
" you're too nice. thanks for being
my friend :) .. "
it hurts to read these 2
and seeing how she cut all
links with me so easily..
just.. lose contact

how many times have you watched
me fall just to smile.
why walk away when that something
is already there.
i am selfless, you'll always
have all of me.

-Monday, 25 Feb ' 08

2008-02-25T22:04:00.002+08:00

oo..! Royston Tan of movie 881
came to my school today !
as well as the singer of
一人一半 - Wu Jia Hui
haha quite interesting sia.
yes lah! physics teacher have to
bring sec 2 NCC students for
3 days 2 nights camp
means no physics lessons
and extra lesson after sch tmr!
shisamo shisamo shisamo ~
i want to eat more~!
still left 2 episodes of
One Litre Of Tears..

here i am, silly as it may seem
foolishly ignoring the pain in my heart
whatever the fate
no matter how cruel
this fool is waiting to be in your thoughts
my silent tears accumulate over time
all out to pursue that precious love

-Sunday, 24 Feb ' 08

2008-02-24T22:20:00.000+08:00

Yeehh~ shiok! ;D
eat at Ikai Jap Restaurant.
buffet style wor.. but..!
service not that good -___-
at the ending serve superr slow
but i loved the different sashimis,
shisamo (pregnant fish) and..
my desert ! green tea ice-cream
with red bean topping xDD
yep! but it was 20-30% more exp
than sakae i think.. zzz
now thinking back.. the memories
chinatown brings back..
not with a sad mentality or a
heavy heart but maybe..
laughing at how silly i was..
it was 'that' time.. i accompanied
'her' to 'her' guitar lesson at
tanjong pagar,international plaza..
when it ended, 'her' aunty actually
came to pick her up.. but we
planned to do other things so..
i stalked them ^^ lol.. all the
way to chinatown. midway.. they
break for lunch at some small
restaurant then i was like -___-
dang. luckily or unfortunately
got 7 eleven then i bought cup noodles.
and crap lah! the water not hot
but just warm? Zzz!
from that day i nvr eat it.
then back to stalking business..
finally i lost them cos..
they went in a clinic and
sian.. the location it was
got no place to actually hide and
look out ._. so.. they went out
and i didn't realise till i received
sms. even better i don't know where
people's park complex, run around
like mad idiot then finally just
asked some guy then went to the bus
stop where her aunty left.
silly huh? another reason why is
'her' parents has a stall selling
yu pian mi fen at the coffeeshop
behihnd chinatown point. been
there a few times..
chat, laugh, tease..
it was so fun then.. hah..
btw for those who know..
don't mind my eyelid injury..
play basketball that time.. just
got headbutt by some other guy
then my specs had to scratch it
look nice sia. like the prince of tennis
ryoma echizen kena the eyelid injury
hahas =XX
wanna be. a neurologist.

life is what happens while you're busy
making your excuses..
my life and future isn't a dream anymore
i will live each day to my fullest.
aim for my goals that i've just found
have to change my pathetic mentality
and be happy about past memories
not be sad or cry over it.
my friends, memories, family are
the pillars of support and encouragement
i'll never give up.
help me. reach my goals.

-Thursday, 21 Feb ' 08

2008-02-21T21:46:00.002+08:00

started watching a jap drama..
based on real story and it's
realllyyy touching.. even
steel hearted ppl would tear.
"One litre of tears"
only at ep 2 and 3 already
start tearing .. gah..
kept tearing when i was in the
shower.. out of nowhere with
no reason too.. but i felt
refreshed after that..
i must be thinking too much..
crap.
i need someone to tell me
how to live life to the fullest
now, yes i mean right now
before i start regretting
things i should have done
afterall the future is unpredictable
and everything is already so
coincidental, never been better

all these years i've kept so many
things inside of me
i never knew, never realise
almost ready to explode
i see your dreams coming true
see mine crashing down
thinking not too far ahead
just living my life
day by day slowly..